Well since those tear marks are starting to appear on my face and I'd rather not have people thinking to a prison tattoo because I killed a guy, I suppose I should let the secret out. And this really the only one I can think of so I hope this satisfies that damn mutt.
Funny thing is, I actually killed a guy.
Well while I was looking for a place to stay after Feral Slendy fucked up my apartment I took residence in the loft up in the campus theatre. It was so bad. 60 feet high, only one (safe) way up. it was hell on the back when it came to sleeping, but it wasn't too bad.
Well one night..I don't know what happened. I was normally so alert when it came to making sure I was jumped. But that night... I just don't what happened but I was jumped. A masked man was suddenly pummeling me. We got into a scuffle until we reached the edge.
I want to say it was just an accident or self-defense, but I think deep down I was tired. I was tired of the stalking and jumping and masks that I had enough. I body-checked him knocking him off the loft and the guy fell to his death.
This is was my first kill.
I got down there. I had to think of something fast. So I staged his body to look like a suicide and took his mask. The poor guy. He looked so young, I'm pretty sure he was brand new to all of this. His eyes just had a look of shock and terror on his face. Since he had no idea, and since the police force was rather sparse, no one made a big deal about it.
To that guy, I know you can't read this, but I'm sorry....
I'm so very sorry.
The reason I didn't tell anyone except for those that are I consider really close to me, well it's not exactly something you want to let the public know when you are on probation. Also, that was so shortly after I learned of that grey line between Runners and Proxies. How Proxies are human too. For something like that to happen...I was pretty shaken up by it.
So that's my secret. Hopefully this well be the end of those markings.
Um....wow.
ReplyDeleteIf you had to I guess it's good your safe, but.....wow.
It happens, Raggedyman.
ReplyDeleteHe probably would have done the same to you, were he told.
It's all a grey area if you think about. Everyone's killing everyone and....why?
It's okay that you're shaken. I hope telling your readers about it helps your conscience and the markings.
Thank you, I really appreciate it.
DeleteYou're very welcome. It seemed like you needed a the comforting words, so-- if no one else is going to do it, my lurking ass will.
DeleteBe well.
See? That wasn't so hard.
ReplyDeleteI can understand why you wouldn't want to talk about it though... It's not the kind of thing you ever want to talk about...
I hate to be blunt but this is a fact of the life we live in as runners or fighters. Proxies die. We kill them. They kill us too and feel little to no remorse so it we didn't do it we would be screwed. It is okay to feel bad about it. If telling us helps you then tell us.
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