Wednesday, April 25, 2012

 Why do you bother coming along? You can never keep up! All you ever do is cry!  You're just going to ruin it! Do you want to be friends with us or not! C'mon! You can take one punch, you can take another!God you are a useless piece of shit! You're 10 and you can't tie your shoes! You're a creep! Fuck off! You don't know what that is, are you a dumbass? Will you just shut up, nobody cares! Aw damn it, he's gonna' cry again! Do you actually think I would like somebody like you! Ugh, you're hideous! Go on and cry to your mom you little 'tard! All you ever do is cry!  You're just going to ruin it! Do you want to be friends with us or not!  C'mon! You can take one punch, you can take another! God you are a useless piece of shit! Why do you bother coming along? Do you actually think I would like somebody like you! Ugh, you're hideous! Go on and cry to your mom you little 'tard! You're a creep! Fuck off! You don't know what that is, are you a dumbass?Why do you bother coming along? You can never keep up! Do you want to be friends with us or not! You're just going to ruin it! All you ever do is cry! Go on and cry to your mom you little 'tard! Ugh, you're hideous! Do you actually think I would like somebody like you! Aw damn it, he's gonna' cry again! Will you just shut up, nobody cares! You don't know what that is, are you a dumbass? Fuck off! You're a creep! You're 10 and you can't tie your shoes! God you are a useless piece of shit! C'mon! You can take one punch, you can take another! Do you want to be friends with us or not! You're just going to ruin it! All you ever do is cry! Why do you bother coming along? You can never keep up! You're 10 and you can't tie your shoes! You're a creep! Fuck off! You don't know what that is, are you a dumbass? Will you just shut up, nobody cares! Aw damn it, he's gonna' cry again! Do you actually think I would like somebody like you! Ugh, you're hideous! Go on and cry to your mom you little 'tard! All you ever do is cry!  You're just going to ruin it! Do you want to be friends with us or not!  Do you actually think I would like somebody like you! Aw damn it, he's gonna' cry again! Will you just shut up, nobody cares! You don't know what that is, are you a dumbass? Fuck off! You're a creep! You're 10 and you can't tie your shoes! God you are a useless piece of shit! C'mon! You can take one punch, you can take another! All you ever do is cry! 


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Please....make them cry....


Monday, April 16, 2012

Christ....this hurts so much.

The Dog is so much closer. I swear I saw it in the hallway once

The closer it gets, the more painful that marking seems to be. Dammit, I can barely move my right arm.

And my head, shititsbuzzing. The more I piece these memories together the more fearful I become of what I'm going learn. And the more my head throbs

The Dog won't even let me get to my car.

It's a war of attrition now.

I kinda miss when these posts were filled with hope and smartassery.

Saturday, April 14, 2012

Elaine

Dammit, I hate it when things like go down.
Y'know, it funny really. Despite all the crazy shit you got yourself into, I always thought that if it came down to it, you would be one the last of us to fall.

I just...wish I had a chance to thank you. God that sounds so cliched but it's the truth.
You were the first person I started chatting with on here. You were able to relate to me when it came to dealing with legal troubles, you shared a couple of secrets, and you would always thank me for any support I was willing to offer even if it seemed impossible for me to actually do so.

You were the one who would snap me to reality and subtly tell me to man up when it was needed.

You were a friend.
A very good friend.
I wish I had the chance to meet you in person.

It feels....very lonely now...


I'll miss you Elaine.

Thursday, April 12, 2012

*blows party blower*

Happy birthday to me.

Yeah, another year older and at 23 you realize more and that to kinda stopped caring after your 21st (sure I could drink then but it was the principle of the matter that made to birthday worth celebratin.

So it's me and a cookie cake at my apartment. Things have been civil enough. No Black Dog. No Slendy. No Proxies. It's not too bad.

Unfortunantly the mark is growing worse. It's continues to the burn and  the more I try to remembrr=.


Cheers to all of you!

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Hey guys! I found the ball! 


What are you talking about? We didn't kick it that way. 


Well I found it! 


Fine! 
















Just a few more minutes. 


















Alright gaytard, where is it? 


It's right here! 


Where? 

It's here. It's just stuck! 


God, you are pathetic Chris. Can't you do anything right? 


























Thank you child. 






















He will make a fine meal. 

Monday, April 9, 2012

I'm scared

All of this just seems so familiar. But it can't be.

I mean...my childhood was so clear. I know Slendy stalked me for a short period but...he eventually went away. It just seemed like a standard scenario as per some of the other Runner.


But everything seems muddled now.


I think I did something bad.


 Something very, very bad

Anna. Where are you?
I'm scared.

Sunday, April 8, 2012

So the tear marks almost faded, but they are still fait enough for recognize them. I seem to be the only one to notice though so I guess that is progress. The mark on my arm hasn't faded in the slightest though and it's been hurting like hell .

Speaking of pain, this last post that popped up just...I don't know. It's been making my head throb.
I can hear this post in my head. as I read it, if that makes any sense. I hear the voices of kids, I hear the rustling of brushes, the chirping of birds, the squishing of mud under their feet.

And then

that last line

Who are you? 


A surge of pain just shoots through me. My head feels like lead and I hear a high-pitched noise that feels like it's ripping my eardrums apart. My entire body just shuts down.

Those voices, the noises, the pain


They are all so familiar.  

Friday, April 6, 2012

Hey did you find the ball yet? 






C'mon, are you really in a hurry? This place is awesome. 








You know she is going to bitch us out if we take to long.








Well why does she keep having us play this game then? 








Yeah this is the seventh time this has happened this month. 


























































Who are you? 

Thursday, April 5, 2012

Secrets Out

Well since those tear marks are starting to appear on my face and I'd rather not have people thinking to a prison tattoo because I killed a guy, I suppose I should let the secret out. And this really the only one I can think of so I hope this satisfies that damn  mutt.


Funny thing is, I actually killed a guy.

Well while I was looking for a place to stay after Feral Slendy fucked  up my apartment I took residence in the loft up in the campus theatre. It was so bad. 60 feet high, only one (safe) way up. it was hell  on the back when it came to sleeping, but it wasn't too bad.

Well one night..I don't know what happened. I was normally so alert when it came to making sure I was jumped. But that night... I just don't what happened but I was jumped. A masked man was suddenly pummeling me. We got into a scuffle until we reached the edge.

I want to say it was just an accident or self-defense, but I think deep down I was tired. I was tired of the stalking and jumping and masks that I had enough. I body-checked him knocking him off the loft and the guy fell to his death.

This is was my first kill.

I got down there. I had to think of something fast. So I staged his body to look like a suicide and took his mask. The poor guy. He looked so young, I'm pretty sure he was brand new to all of this. His eyes just had a look of shock and terror on his face. Since he had no idea, and since the police force was rather sparse, no one made a big deal about it.

To that guy, I know you can't read this, but I'm sorry....

I'm so very sorry.

The reason I didn't tell anyone except for those that are I consider really close to me, well it's not exactly something you want to let the public know when you are on probation. Also, that was so shortly after I learned of that grey line between Runners and Proxies. How Proxies are human too. For something like that to happen...I was pretty shaken up by it.

So that's my secret. Hopefully this well be the end of those markings.